You have always been my true best friend. I can honestly say there ya never been anyone I have been as closest to as I allowed myself get to you. People say their mother, their father their, someone, but you are my Someone, other than God.
The day you asked me to marry you may have not been the most romantic someone would have wanted but to me, I wouldn’t have asked it to have been any other way or any other place. I could have been more happier in my life than that moment and knowing I was going to spend the rest of my life with my best friend.
Yes I knew it wasn’t going to be peaches and cream. And yes I knew we wasn’t always going to agree. And there were going to be times we couldn’t stand each other. But in those moments I wouldn’t choose to spend with anyone but you.
Throughout these 4/5 years, we built a foundation, so strong we been through things a lot of people go threw. Loosing people we love, having to start over ( together), struggle tribulations, depression, being strong when the other can’t be. And of all always been there for each other.
Late night conversations, heart filled talks, knowing and definitely not knowing on what to do about obstacles we had to challenge, we leaned on each other. And coming to you was the best thing in my life. Even telling you about my day at work. Or asking you what you did just so I could hear you talk. Especially when you were excited about things, I loved it.
Calling you stupid, because to me it was so funny and I didn’t want laugh so ridiculously you’d think I was literally stupid. Or saying you were “so dumb🙄” bc I couldn’t explain what I really wanted to say how I thought it was a fantastic idea with more intelligence behind what I wanted to say on how I really felt. So I always just laughed at it and say things like that. I’m probably the stupid one now.
Here in the last year yes has been our hardest but not talking about it, made it worse. Still feeling no different or looking at you no different than before I just quit trying so hard because I just figured you would come to me like you said.
Yes loosing your mom was hard, not seeing your daughter even harder. People down your neck what you should do and not, completely stressful. On top our household issues. Yes, I get it. But not being together through it made it harder instead it separated us.
I gave you space, you wanted more. My best friend is now gone. I made myself vulnerable to you. Yes at some points I am mad and hurt but at me too. Because it takes two to work it or break it. And we both did that. Now two people who love each other, live apart, don’t even speak no more.
Hearing your voice made my day, looking at you smile made me smile. Being in your company made me happy. To my Best Friend, I love you.❤️